Friday, April 15, 2011

Day 168

Some of you know about my relationship with my in-laws.  I will not detail it here, but let's just say it is something that is a work in progress.  I left after a few hours with them and was in tears the rest of the day.   They are wonderful people and I just don't know how I am supposed to act with them.  Our "parts" seem to have been written for us through our past actions and reactions and there is so much left unsaid but that is staring us in the face.  My honest opinion is that my father in law wants to love me and me to love him, but is afraid I don't and so puts up a wall and guess what, I feel the same way.  The thought that he doesn't like me crushes me even though I pretend to be tough about it.  It hurts and it makes me feel sad.

In other news, if I am taking coconut oil to kill yeast, why did the 4 pieces of toast I just ate taste so delicious???

I'm not proud...


  1. I know what you mean about building up walls; I'm afraid I've done it too. Why are relationships with in-laws so hard?

  2. Did I lecture you too much? I went all male on you and fixed instead of listened. Forgive me?