Day 262

Sent Curly off to two people who asked for it.  That inspired me to pull out Q and I spent about an hour on that fleshing out characters.

My thyroid symptoms are worsening.  The small goiter on my neck is about 3times the size it was Friday and I am having a hard time swallowing and when I talk it's like there's gravel in my neck.  The aching has worsened and the headaches have started though that may be from the 3 periods I've had back to back these last weeks.

I called my Endo.  He is closing his practice and now I need to find a new doc on my crappy insurance and T doesn't start his new job until December with hope of good ins??  Oh, who am I kidding?  I can't get my hopes up.  

Anyway, he can't see me until the end of the month anyway as a last hurrah.  So, if anyone reads this and has heard of a good Endo, please let me know.  The joints in my hands and fingers have started freezing up too, but I'm not sure if that is related to this or some residual TOS thing.

Don't worry, I'm not depressed or anything.  Honestly, I'm not happy about it though.  HAHA-I just keep thinking I don't have time for this.  T goes out of town this Wed-Tuesday and so its not like I can slow down anyway.  He is taking tomorrow off so I can rest before he's gone.  Those of you who know how much I've leaned on my mom on times like this and how healthy it is that I no longer do that/cut a few ties there, will be glad to know I have to figure this out on my own since she and my dad are traveling for a month.  Yes, its good for me. 

No, I'm not happy about a goiter which is growing larger on my neck every day.  But that's a pride thing.  Sorry to complain, but I guess if there's anyplace I can vent just a little this would be it.